broken wings

once again i fall from the tree i thought i was stable from. i want to be fixed but im too scared my wings get broken again. I need to have you. (once more) i need to love you (for the first time) i need to say it your face (I LOVE YOU). oh my god oh my god oh my god my heart aches.

she knows something is wrong and i yearn to tell her.

"How did she get this way? How did she get this way? Through tryin’ to hide it. What does it take to say, What does it take to say, She’s dying," eleanor mcevoy - sophie


It feels like i need to run away from you, but i want to grab you and shake you till i know how you actually feel. My butterfly isnt dying even though i cant stop crying. I just speak no sense. my tongue speaks another life and i dont know why or how.

How do i support so many people when i cant even support myself? Can i trust myself? do i love myself? How do people trust me? what makes me so worthy of things? i feel so numb and most of the time all i think of is you. "You" where are you? do i just dream you?

My dreams tell me your "special" That you hold my hand away from the innocent that sits infront of us.

what next?